I am not ready to die. I realized that today. I mean, who will take care of my kids? Who will take care of my husband? My dad would probably be disappointed that I felt this way but its a reality for me. I am not yet ready to leave this world.

Its true what they say that when you get within an inch of harm or even death, your life flashes before your eyes. I sort of imagined it would be like rewinding a scene in a movie. But its not. When you are faced with death, everything that is important to you becomes crystal clear. Your mind goes over images of those you love.

Everyday I do my best to be careful… about my health - so I take vitamins… about my safety - so I do not drive recklessly… about my life - so I look around first to make sure its safe to cross the street.

Although I may be careful about my life and how I live it, others may not care about endangering it. Its depressing to realize how many people out there have no regard for the life of others.

And as I replay the scene again and again in my mind of a big white BMW SUV bearing down on me, I think… I am not ready to die.